I’ve very recently just got back from the Muchan conference held in Berlin, the first conference of its kind created to attract Young Adult Messianic Jews from around the world. All in all it was an incredible experience with far too many things to comment on here, so I’ll just focus on the trip we all made as part of the conference into Poland to go to Auschwitz.
There was a decent mix of people at Muchan; mostly Jews but there were quite a few Gentile believers too. The main countries represented were the USA, Australia, Israel, Russia, Germany and the UK (there were 7 of us which was great, for a while I was worried it was just going to me!) so a good selection from across the world, all travelling together to the infamous death camp. What was particularly encouraging was the presence of German Gentile Christians who wanted to support the Messianic movement and go through the experience with us – I know I speak for the rest of the Messianic Jews at Muchan when I say I’m very glad they were there.
We arrived at the town of Auschwitz after dark in the evening and the coaches drove us to our guesthouse where we would stay before going round the site in the morning. In the evening one of the speakers gave a lecture on the Holocaust, its historical context and how it happened, which was very informative if not disturbing. Obviously this was quite emotional for many of the participants there, Jew and Gentile alike, and thankfully we had a chance afterwards to pray together in small groups and share our anxieties with each other about going round the camp the next day. Despite all the sadness and apprehension however we proceeded to have a great time of singing praises to God. We sang songs which spoke of God’s holiness and also expressing the fact that we are to always give Him our thanks, extraordinary things to state at such a time. It was a massive encouragement to me personally how everyone saw fit to give God glory at that moment through song, reaffirming that the reality of the Holocaust under no circumstances diminishes His infinite glory, holiness or justice. I’m sure those moments will stay with me for a long time.
The next day we walked around the camp. It had been snowing heavily, and the bleak grey and white tones of the environment around us seemed fitting in an eery way. We all wrapped up warm with layers to protect us from the cold, knowing that our ancestors were forced to do manual labour in the same temperatures with nothing but a pair of pyjamas. Guides showed us round, pointing at this and that, giving explanations and information on the way. There were lots of exhibits containing huge amounts of one particular item that had been confiscated from the prisoners upon arrival; for example there was a huge collection of shoes, then pairs of glasses, then various kitchen implements, even locks of hair that had been shaven from Jewish women. The collection that stood out to me the most though was one of a vast number of suitcases, all of which had names on them. Most of them Jewish names, ones that wouldn’t be unfamiliar to hear today. This particular exhibit made the owners of the items that much more personal.
We walked round living quarters for prisoners, underground prisons, and even round a gas chamber where we knew thousands and thousands had perished. We stood outside in the yard where Jews were told to strip naked before walking to their deaths in the chambers, thinking they were getting showers. We held a one-minute silence by a wall where many had been lined up and shot by the SS, and also saw various points where prisoners would be hanged naked as a public example. It truly was a place of horror.
After going to Auschwitz 1 we went to Birkenau, another part of the larger Auschwitz complex. This was very different in feel to Auschwitz 1. It was a lot bigger for a start, nearly a mile long in length. It felt a lot less ‘commercial’ too, not lots of museum exhibits or signage, just the camp exactly as it was, a vast landscape of desolation and monotony. Hut after hut, fence after fence, guard tower after guard tower for hundreds of meters, all exactly the same. I thought about how the monotony of the surroundings must have added to the dehumanizing of those kept within, any hint of individualism crushed. Birkenau for me evoked a stronger mood than Auschwitz 1, despite me even walking through a gas chamber at the latter. Birkenau is probably the most barren place I’ve ever been. We ended the trip by saying the Jewish Mourner’s Prayer together in Hebrew and English, and then by blowing a shofar (ram’s horn) at Birkenau as a symbol of God’s sovereignty over the events of the Holocaust.
So how did I feel? Well, when on the previous night we’d met up to discuss our anxieties, mine was that I would feel nothing, and be almost unmoved by what I would see. Unlike many at the conference, I was unaware of any family members dying there; my Jewish ancestors moved to England from Poland long before the Holocaust. The prospect of being numb scared me, and I felt ashamed at the thought of it. Luckily for me I wasn’t the only one who felt like this (even though I thought I would be), and in God’s sovereignty I ended up praying with someone who had similar worries, and we were able to share our burdens with each other, and in the end walked round the camp together too which was a big encouragement.
To be honest I couldn’t really get my head around what had happened at those sites during the war. I couldn’t grasp the fact that I had been standing in the place where a million of my people had died, and so I wasn’t moved as much as I felt I should have been. I suspect at points I may have hidden behind my camera too much, detaching myself from the experience. But even so, I expected to arrive at the camps feeling some form of ‘oppressive mood in the air’ or something, but there wasn’t one there. It was just…barren and lifeless. Of course, I’m horrified at what happened in the Holocaust, but part of me wanted to cry or show some emotion, and it just didn’t happen.
That’s not to say I didn’t take anything away from the trip though; on the contrary I learned something very important. One quote by a historian on the Holocaust goes like this: ‘The road to Auschwitz was built by hate, but paved by indifference’, referencing the indifferent nature of many nations during the war that could have done more to stop these terrible events. This stuck with me and challenged me as I look at the indifference in my own life – of which there is plenty. There have been far too many examples of my apathy preventing me from doing the right thing, whether that’s maintaining communion with God, helping out a friend in need or any other number of things. Indifference is a massive problem for me, and its frightening to think that indifference can let something as profoundly evil as the Holocaust happen. May we fight indifference with all our might.
Of course the one immense encouragement about the Muchan trip to Auschwitz was the fact that we exist! The Nazis planned to eradicate our people, but the fact that an international group of Jewish believers could stand together there, years after the Holocaust is a massive testimony to God’s grace and faithfulness. Praise God that not only do the Jewish people still live, but that there are many such as us at Muchan who put our trust in Jesus as our promised Messiah.






